MAP OF OUR WORLD
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

Last night I dreamt that we actually did it
That we packed up all our things
Got in your car and drove across the country
Like we said we would
Just you and me on the open road
And Sarah playing on the radio
And I said there was no where else I'd rather be
Than fumbling towards ecstasy...with you

Destiny gave us a map of our world
But we didn't follow
Because we thought we knew where we were going
But we were wrong
We shouldn't have left our map behind
'Cause I got lost in your mind
And you took a detour at my heart
And the dream fell apart

You know I would have left it all behind
Because it was so heavenly to lie
Entwined in the warmth of your arms
Of your arms
With you history melted away
And it would be worth gambling
Everything I had on you

Last night I dreamt that we actually did it
That we packed up all our things
Got in your car and drove across the country
Like we said we would
'Cause destiny gave us a map of our world
And this time we chose to follow
It all the way...to heaven...






WHEN THE LIGHTS GO DOWN
Words and Music by C.Wiseman, J.Steele and R.Rutherford

When the lights go down
He'll be filling a pan with a broom in his hand
In some dive across town
He'll be wiping the bar and mopping the floor
Counting his tips and locking the doors
Wrestling the devil that tells him to pour another round
When the lights go down

She'll be calling her friends from her Mercedes Benz
But it's too late now
They were there for the fame, the flash, and the thrill
The drop of the name, the parties, the pills
As another star falls from the Hollywood hills without a sound

When the lights go down
And there's nothing left to be
When the lights go down
And the truth is all you see
When you feel that hole inside your soul
And wonder what you're made of
Well we all find out
When the lights go down

When the lights go down
At the end of the day when this game that I play
Has gone another round
As I lay there alone in this big empty bed
Nothing but thoughts of you in my head
I think of the things that I wish I had said
When you were still around

When the lights go down
And there's nothing left to be
When the lights go down
And the truth is all you see
And I wonder if all my life's about
The sum of all my fears and all my doubts
Yeah
When the lights go down

When the lights go down
And there's nothing left to be
When the lights go down
And the truth is all you see
When you feel that hole inside your soul
And wonder what you're made of
Well we all find out
When the lights go down





LET ME LOVE YOU
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

The first night that I met you
My soul absorbed your voice
And even though my mind knew better
My heart didn't have a choice
'Cause I felt like I'd know you forever
And suddenly hours felt like years
And now with each passing moment
I don't know what to say

CHORUS :
'Cause I just can't seem to find the words
To convince you what you mean to me
I'm telling you I'd give up everything
To feel you breathing next to me
And I'm praying that you are strong enough
To let yourself love me too
Won't you let me love you, let me love you
I'll adore every inch of you

I'm alone tonight and I'm trying to be mad at you
Hoping that will help me let you go
But somehow I only want you more
'Cause life isn't a fairy tale
More times than not you have to fight
And it doesn't matter what you do
I always want to fight for you


CHORUS (repeat)

BRIDGE
'Cause I see my future in your eyes

CHORUS (repeat)






SPACE IN TIME
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

You were my enemy and you were my prayer
And I couldn't walk away from you
Because I was so insecure that it was easy for you to lure me
Into this living hell

CHORUS:
I've been waiting for way too long
But now it's my turn to fly
And I can do this on my own
And find my space in time

I spent so much time pounding on your steel doors
And finally it seemed I got through
But there was no way to please you
Or anything that I could do
To break into your narrow mind

CHORUS (repeat)

BRIDGE
Trying to appease you
To make you see me
To make you want me
I won't do that anymore
Because I've found another door
That opened up to freedom

CHORUS (repeat)






IT'S SO HARD
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

I just can't believe what you're saying to me
Or where this conversation is going
'Cause you just can't make up your mind
And decide what I mean to you
Or where I fit in your life
Or if I even do

You made me afraid to tell you
That I was falling in love with you
It seemed like being quiet was the better
The safer thing to do
I know I've gotta keep it moving
I can't be hung up on you
But I just can't settle my heart
And somehow my better judgement is gone

CHORUS:
I see that you will never be
What I need you to be
I know I've gotta say goodbye
To the time I gave to you
But it's so hard to let you go

Somehow it was easier to get out of bed when I thought of you
Of when you would feed my soul
With a pleasure I could only get from you
I breathe in the scent of you
Still lingering on my sheets
And I know why I've compromised my deepest needs

CHORUS (repeat)

I guess I'm addicted to you
And that's a dangerous habit to have
You make me warm inside
And fill me up with a false sense of pride
When I'm with you I'm swept up
In a mirage of hope and love
But your touch is a drug
That's fleeting and then you're gone

CHORUS (repeat)






YOU
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

Come with me, let your world blend into mine
Smile with me, 'cause worrying's a waste of time
And my heart is yearning for your love tonight
And my sould is aching to reach inside of...

CHORUS:
You - come with me, I love all that you are
You - smile with me, you are my shining star
You - let's run away, you are safe in my arms
You - you make me whole and I won't ever let you go

Laugh with me, hold my hand let's run away
To tomorrow, forget the pain of yesterday
'Cause you build hope inside me
And you make me whole
I'm no longer searching
Because I've found it all in...

CHORUS (repeat)

'Cause you build hope inside me
And you make me whole
I'm no longer searching
Because I've found it all in...

CHORUS (repeat)






KEEP ON MOVING
Words by Bree Clarke, Music by Bree Clarke & Steve Zuckerman

Sometimes it gets so dark inside my head
And it's hard to sense the light or that there could be brighter times ahead
But there's only one way to go, 'cause I've, already been as low
As I could ever be
I just need to reach inside and find the hope I'm sure resides
Somewhere deep in me

CHORUS:
I've gotta keep keep on moving
Keep keep on moving
Keep keep on moving, yeah
I've gotta keep keep on moving
Keep keep on moving
Keep keep on moving, yeah

Because it does no good to hide away
As I retreat from the world I can sense my soul start to fade
When there's so much I wanna do
Somehow I've gotta find a way to make it through
I once believed in dreams
And there's so much I owe myself, I know these tears won't fill me up
Or give me what I need

CHORUS (repeat)

BRIDGE
Because I know it's time
To reach ahead and leave the past behind

CHORUS (repeat)






PURGATORY
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

I'm spiraling through a world of negativity
And leasing the days of my life
Paying with time I'll never get back
And sacrificing my mind
It's a grey line - sanity
As we drift to that other world
Weaving in and out of conciousness
Desperately searching for a goal

CHORUS :
'Cause I've lost touch with who I am
And what I love
Living in purgatory
With no where to go

Drifting through memory and praying for strength
To find some purpose in this life
Digging down deep inside myself to find the place
That courage and happiness reside
'Cause my mind has taken on a life of its own
Disconnected from my heart
That has forgotten how to feel
And my soul lives in chaos yearning for a truce





AT PEACE WITH YOU
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

I'm a complicated person to know, even more so to love
I closed off my heart so long ago that mostly my faith and trust is gone
My heart comes with a past that weighs heavily on my soul
But you enable me to open up and start to let it go

CHORUS
'Cause all I know is that you make me smile
That when I'm with you my mind is calm
When you say my name I find so much comfort in your voice
And my heart is at peace with you

Because I really love the innocence and hope that you incite in me
That I'm finally on the way to feeling safe and trusting again
As I rest my head on your chest I adopt the rhythm of your heart
And as the warm air envelops us, I lose all sense of time

CHORUS

The best times are when we can sit in silence
And not have to fill the space with words
Or take a walk on a crisp winter's night, soaking up the moon
Safety is not something I take for granted and neither is your touch
I'll hold these memories close to me and file them in the archives of my heart






FLY HOME
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

My pride is on the line
But it's time to step aside
And watch you fly away
To feel and see all you can see
Where your sole's completely free
And your spirit will shine


CHORUS:
I will be your valentine
And I will be your best friend for life
'Cause dear, there will always be
A place in my heart for you
When you fly home
Fly home

And though it kills me to let go
Of the only love I've known
I can't make you stay
And I, I can't give you what you need
Feed that curiosity
That compels you to leave


CHORUS (repeat)

BRIDGE
Fly ---

CHORUS (repeat)






I WANNA BE WITH YOU
Words and Music by Keith Thomas, Shelly Peiken & Tiffany Arbuckle

I try but I can't seem to get myself
To think of anything but you
Your breath in my face, Your warm gentle kiss
I taste the truth
I taste the truth
We know what I came here for
So I won't ask for more

CHORUS:
I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you

So I'll hold you tonight
Like I would if you were mine to hold
Forever more
And I'll savor each kiss
That I wanted so much to feel before
To feel before
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this

CHORUS (repeat)

BRIDGE
Oh, I can't fight this feeling anymore
Drives me crazy when I try to
So call my name
And take my hand
Can you make my wish your command

CHORUS (repeat)






1000 Oceans
Words and Music by Tori Amos

These tears I've cried
I've cried a thousand oceans
And if it seems I'm floating
In the darkness
Well, I can't believe that I would keep
Keep you from flying
And I would cry a thousand more
If that's what it takes
To sail you home
Sail you home
Sail you home

I'm aware what the rules are
But you know that I will run
You know that I will follow you
Over silbury hill
Through the solar field
you know that I will follow you

And if I find you will you still remember
Playing at trains
Or does this little blue ball
Just fade away
Over silbury hill
Through the solar field
You know that I will follow you
I'm aware what the rules are
But you know that I will run
You know that I will follow you

And these tears I've cried
I've cried a thousand oceans
And if it seems I'm floating
In the darkness
Well, I can't believe
That I would keep
Keep you from flying
And I would cry a thousand more
If that's what it takes
To sail you home
Sail you home
Sail you home
Sail ---- Sail you home






THIS IS ME
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

I know you can't really see, but today I faced my mortality
A large dose of reality and a word stole my smile
Watch me as I exhale into your dreams, I share your dreams
And analyze what this means for me and you
What this means, what this means, for me and you


Yeah I'm juggling 2 or 3, I'm fucking with my destiny
Flooded with this urgency to find her in me
I'm here with you, you're here in me, we're swimming in intensity
I close my eyes and think of her dreaming for things to be normal again
I close my eyes and think of her dreaming for things to be normal again


CHORUS:
And I wonder who this is
I don't think I've seen her before
But this is me, oh, this is me, oh, this is me
This is me, oh, this is me, oh, this is me


In all your innocence, masked in resemblance
You still face the consequence of something coming out
We're marked by names, We're dodging labels
Definitions, Explanations
Feeding on Exaggeration, Boy you've got it wrong
Boy you've got it, boy you've got it, boy you've got it wrong


CHORUS: (Repeat)


I am a singer, I am an actress, a gambler, an acrobat
Swinging on this frail rope, relying on a thread of dangerous hope
And you know I almost fell when I realized that this was real
That I might have let this steal all that I live for
All that I live, all that I live, all that I live for
All that I live for


CHORUS: (Repeat)





WHO WANTS TO LIVE FOREVER
Words and Music by Brian May

There's no time for us
There's no place for us
What is this thing
That builds our dreams
Yet slips away from us

CHORUS:
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever

There's no chance for us
It's all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment
Set aside for us

CHORUS (repeat)

BRIDGE
Now touch my tears
With your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips
And we can have forever
And we can love forever
Forever is ours today

CHORUS (repeat)






THIS TIME LAST YEAR
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

I don't know exactly when I lost you
To the rainbow sky
Or when I learned what it meant to cry
Or if I'll ever be able to say goodbye to you
To you


CHORUS:
I know it's better this way
That now we both can grow
But I still want you to know
That I remember this time last year


Today I was cleaning out my drawers
And I came across that picture of us on your birthday
When I held you in my arms
That night we felt a new dimension so foreign before
Your skin so soft, your lips so right
I felt my fear subside


CHORUS: (Repeat)


BRIDGE:
I still remember the way that you touched me
That I would surrender into the arms of ecstasy
And I remember the light in your eyes
When you told me you loved me
Your presence overwhelms me
So I don't know what to say
But I am sure my expression conveys
That I still love you


CHORUS: (Repeat)





A LETTER
Words and Music by Bree Clarke


Now the hollow memories
Immersed in your scent
For all the hours you have spent
Living in my head
Now you've gone somewhere else instead


CHORUS 1:
You can dye your hair
And you can act like you don't care
But I see the fear in there
Inside of you


And you said to me "I'm still so much of a child"
"I'm not ready to be exiled, this is comfortable"
Denial is such a pretty place
Nice and calm and safe
Forget your little mistake
That was all it was


CHORUS 2:
I loved playing with your curls
And I know what I felt lying next to you
I wish you weren't so scared
(Repeat)


BRIDGE:
You have no idea what you've left behind
This pending question hanging in my mind


Beneath your porcelain skin I've been
I've felt you from within
No matter what we hide from them
What can I expect from you when I don't even see who I am
When I'm still playing your little game
And I'm not honest with myself


CHORUS 1: (Repeat)


CHORUS 2: (Repeat)




MY GRANDMOTHER'S HANDS
Words and Music by Bree Clarke


Her hands have experience
They move through the motions of the woman's work
Though her hands know much more
Than they were proscribed to know
I sit down beside her in her kitchen of memories
And listen to the stories of the way things used to be


CHORUS:
My Grandmother's hands hold a legacy of strength
My Grandmother's hair flows with life and dignity
My Grandmother's words tell me to stand on my own
To hold my inner freedom and feel how far I've come


I cut off all my hair today on the way to liberty
And I cut all those ties that bound me with insecurity
I am tired of you telling me who and what I should be
Wrapped up in your whacked out vision of femininity


CHORUS: (Repeat)


Maybe I should find me a really good man
'Cause don't you know that solitude is Un-American
I could, I could, I could find me a really good woman
Then you could cross me off your list of model citizens


CHORUS: (Repeat)


BRIDGE:
And I
Was running
From what they planned out for me
A marriage, a baby
And a pencil thin body
But I'm not running now
I sing with truth in my words
Like her


CHORUS: (Repeat)





LOOKING BACK
Words and music by Bree Clarke


We were at that party and I was dancing with my back turned
When I turned around what I saw made my heart burn
You were kissing her with your hands in her hair
And your hands were moving down your back
And I knew it wouldn't be long 'til you would let her put them anywhere


I went into the kitchen and I tried to be as calm as I could be
Ironically the way I felt I was concerned I didn't make a scene
You came in to me and said you were sorry but you just didn't think
I didn't want to hear your words, I trusted you
I thought commitment meant something


CHORUS:
Looking back I saw you and who I thought you were
Then I saw a faceless person, lost and insecure
I felt like I was living inside some twisted book
Packed with unwritten codes I guess I overlooked


To you this was ok because it happened beneath the dozen approving eyes
Of people who were friends in theory but clearly possessed a darker side
For you there was a strength in conformity
I guess for that to happen I was meant to compromise my dignity


CHORUS: (Repeat)


Somehow you managed to convince me that it was something I had done
That your betrayal and lack of self control was my fault - of course you weren't the one
We lived our lives on your terms and what was good for you
And I put up with this bullshit blindly because I just couldn't let go of you

CHORUS: (Repeat)




YOU
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

Strangely Calm
I sit down to write you this song
And I think what you mean to me
This melody
I am floating in this sanctuary
Where I am guided by your smile


CHORUS:
I love you
And I wish that I could be
What you want me to be
To you
It's so cold
You know it just started to snow
It's the first time this year
And I'm in love with you


I hear you breathe
Cold in stillness next to me
While I am paralyzed by your words
I'm silent now
My anger soaks up my tears
I know I can't give you what you deserve


CHORUS: (Repeat)


Deep in me
I guess I didn't have the strength to feel
Something different from all that I've known
I feel your dreams
And I want what's best for you
I know that your angels are calling you there


CHORUS (Repeat)





REMEMBER HER SMILE
(Song For Erin)
Words by Richard B. Brandow II and Bree Clarke
Music by Bree Clarke


I said goodbye to you every day
Sometimes more than once
Because I knew that each day
Could be your last one
I wanted to protect you
I was the older one
Wanting to take your pain from you
Knowing nothing could be done


CHORUS:
Now I'm frozen here
Time cannot stop my tears
'Cause I still love you as much as the last time
You smiled at me
I never got to tell you
Just how much I would miss you
Maybe if I cry loud enough
Some how you will hear me

You live on through my memory
Through my words and my heart
I tell people how much you had to give
And how you taught us all how much it meant to live


CHORUS: (Repeat)


BRIDGE:
You were the one who loved me the most
That's how I know that you will always be close
I never got to tell you
Just how much I would miss you
But I still love you as much as the last time
You smiled at me
You smiled at me





UNDEFINED
Words and Music by Bree Clarke

I love lying, wrapped in your arms
I feel you in candlelight
I feel your heartbeat as you hold me closer
Your long dark hair finds its way
And gently sweeps my face
You have replaced that emptiness so familiar before


CHORUS:
I wear your rainbow colored ring
I feel we are one soul
I wonder if you understand how much I love you
I wish I had a better word
But there is no word in this language to explain
What I feel when you touch me
What I see when I look down
What I hear when you speak
It is undefined


I love watching the sun shine in
Through the blinds and melt into your skin
Remember that morning when we looked out my window
The trees covered in snow
That was when I knew I didn't care what they thought
I'd still love you


CHORUS: (repeat)